Snapshots of Her Life

[katleept]

She flips through her girlfriend's album the moment she leaves it alone and unsupervised. Willow rarely brings the book out, although she only suspects how much reminders of her past before Kennedy came into her life upsets her. It's out of its hiding place now only because she's been putting new pictures in it of their trip to Rome. That was one of their happiest times, despite their missions, Kennedy reflects sadly, simply because it was only her and Willow, no Scooby Gang or other Slayers, no ghosts of girlfriends past hanging over their shoulders.

She knows every inch of Sunnydale holds another memory for her love. She knows she can not walk its streets without remembering her first loves or other fond times of which Kennedy had no part. She flips through pictures now that hint of those times and relationships. There are many pictures of Willow with Tara, the girl she loved before Kennedy, her first girlfriend, the girl with whom she would still be if she had not been killed before her very eyes. There are almost as many with Buffy, whom Kennedy is well aware Willow still holds a secret crush, and Xander, the one man who might yet be able to bring her back from "the gay side", as a lot of prejudiced bigots they've all known refer to their love for members of their own gender.

Kennedy flips through the snapshots of Willow's life before, upon hearing her returning, quickly closing the book and laying it back down where she'd had it. It still stings her that she's not a larger part of Willow's life, that she didn't even think or dream of her before they met. She has her present and her future. That'll have to be enough, she reminds herself again as her mouth turns up to catch Will's kiss, for she can never have her past. But she does have her love, and that will be enough.

The End