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♥ LOVE MEME ♥

A love meme started in honor, in a way, of the Supernatural boys, especially Jared who's having a hard time with his depression right now. Too many of us know too well what that's like. I'm not going to name any names, but you know who you are and you know I love each and every one of you and would throw my arms around you a tight hug if I could.

We've lost too many because of depression. I'm reminded of Robin and Owen especially right now. Thank God Owen had his brothers to pull him through his tough time. I'm hoping Jensen and the rest can do the same for Jared now.

And I know I've been kind of AWOL since my baby Jareth's death. I keep thinking I'm going to do this big whole update post about it, but I just don't seem to have in it in me. It would involve too many feels, and I don't really want to spend what time I do have on the computer on thinking back and getting depressed again.

But the kids are on new medication, and everybody seems to be doing better because of it. The trick is continuing to be able to afford it. Jareth and Rocket and several of the others we've lost have had health problems that were unsolvable and seemed to go back on the fleas. We've even used Revolution and Frontline on them, but neither seemed to do much good. Comfortis has definitely had the best results so far, and we hope it continues to do so.

I would say pray, but I haven't really been praying since we lost JJ. I know there's a God, Gods actually, but I don't think Any of Them really care that much.

I've also been swamped with overtime at work (we just can't keep people) and health problems of my own. I'm struggling to get better control on both my sugar and blood pressure, am on new medication for both, and am trying to make better life style and diet changes to help. Depression and diabetes seems to have claimed the most people I know about who didn't have tobacco and/or alcohol issues, and although I often want to die, I don't want to die until Drew does. Not trying to get any one depressed or sympathetic, just stating facts.

But that's where my computer time comes in, too. Taking time for myself to write and do other fandom things is one of the things that I often feel guilty about, or have, but no more. My doctor says I need to alleviate stress in my life, and since fandom is my #1 stress reducer, she wants me to write as much as I possibly can. :-) She's new to the area. I like her; she's pretty cool and knowledgeable.

She thinks my diabetes is hormone-related, BTW, which shouldn't surprise any one who knows the history of the women on my maternal side. We always have female problems. I myself underwent a six month long and heavy cycle before getting on the depo vera shots.

But it can be beat. We just have to fight it.

We also have four new babies. Three were rescued with help from one of Drew's regular customers who couldn't keep them (they were thrown out at his place of business on top of a busy highway), and the other was taken in by a friend who seems to have since gone out of my life as she changed jobs (we used to be co-workers) who was forced out of her apartment and back to her grandparents who wouldn't let her keep him. My sweet Drew, however, has become thoroughly attached to little Jasper, who we got from Shonnan, so that wasn't good for Shonnan but certainly has been for us!

Any way, I'm back now and hoping to be online a little more frequently. Thanks for all the prayers, fuzzies, and warm thoughts. Thanks to