Sinking Low (In Love)
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katleeptTitle: Sinking Low (In Love)
Author: Kat Lee
Fandom: Due South
Character/Pairing: Benton/Ray V.
Rating: G/K
Challenge/Prompt:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
slashthedrabble #370: Train Wreck Syndrome
Warning(s): None
Word Count: 500
Summary:
Disclaimer: All characters within belong to their rightful owners, not the author, and are used without permission.
There are certain questions a man should never ask, certain curious things of which he should never speak aloud, no matter how steadfastly he stands by his morals. A good compass always points to the right directions, but moral obligations are not always so clear. Benton would like to think and strives to live as though they are despite his grandmother's multiple warnings that that is often not the case in life.
He's heard her words in his mind many times, but until coming to America, he's never actually believed her most important advice. He tried to believe it as a dutiful grandson, especially knowing his grandmother never lied to him, but as a dutiful mounty, he's often shied away from her truth. He's forced himself to always do what is right and never cave to temptation to take the wrong path.
But that was before America. It was before Chicago. It was before Ray. Now, almost every day, new, moral dilemmas arise. He's steadfastly chosen the right path until a few days ago when he almost had Diefenbaker taken from him. Ray saved him with a license that, if Benton is honest with himself, he knows is not real. But he could not betray the loyalties both Diefenbaker and Ray have given him since they first came into his lives. He could not see Dief imprisoned, especially not when Ray gave him such an easy way out.
So he shut his mouth and did what was wrong, feeling in his heart that it was right. His grandmother used to warn him of developing the same Train Wreck syndrome that his father had and that his father had before him. She'd seen it hurt too many of the men she loved and didn't want Benton to suffer the same fate. Ray also warns him frequently that his determination to do what is right may one day get him into more trouble than even he can handle. Although Benton's still not entirely sure what that means, he knows it can not be a good thing.
Just like the feelings he's developing for Ray are not supposed to be good. When they're alone together, when Ray smiles at him in that certain way, when his hand brushes his, feelings stir within Benton unlike any he's ever known before. They're strong and warm enough, he's quite certain, to melt all the snow in his homeland.
He wants to ask Ray if he feels the same. It is the right thing to do lest he one day act on these feelings and find that they are not reciprocated, but at the same time, he's scared. He's scared Ray might take the higher ground and leave him behind, and so for the second time in his life, Benton keeps his mouth shut. He doesn't act on his morals, no matter how many times he tingles when Ray brushes him. He knows he's doing wrong, but he couldn't lose Dief and he can't lose Ray, either.
The End
Author: Kat Lee
Fandom: Due South
Character/Pairing: Benton/Ray V.
Rating: G/K
Challenge/Prompt:
slashthedrabble #370: Train Wreck SyndromeWarning(s): None
Word Count: 500
Summary:
Disclaimer: All characters within belong to their rightful owners, not the author, and are used without permission.
There are certain questions a man should never ask, certain curious things of which he should never speak aloud, no matter how steadfastly he stands by his morals. A good compass always points to the right directions, but moral obligations are not always so clear. Benton would like to think and strives to live as though they are despite his grandmother's multiple warnings that that is often not the case in life.
He's heard her words in his mind many times, but until coming to America, he's never actually believed her most important advice. He tried to believe it as a dutiful grandson, especially knowing his grandmother never lied to him, but as a dutiful mounty, he's often shied away from her truth. He's forced himself to always do what is right and never cave to temptation to take the wrong path.
But that was before America. It was before Chicago. It was before Ray. Now, almost every day, new, moral dilemmas arise. He's steadfastly chosen the right path until a few days ago when he almost had Diefenbaker taken from him. Ray saved him with a license that, if Benton is honest with himself, he knows is not real. But he could not betray the loyalties both Diefenbaker and Ray have given him since they first came into his lives. He could not see Dief imprisoned, especially not when Ray gave him such an easy way out.
So he shut his mouth and did what was wrong, feeling in his heart that it was right. His grandmother used to warn him of developing the same Train Wreck syndrome that his father had and that his father had before him. She'd seen it hurt too many of the men she loved and didn't want Benton to suffer the same fate. Ray also warns him frequently that his determination to do what is right may one day get him into more trouble than even he can handle. Although Benton's still not entirely sure what that means, he knows it can not be a good thing.
Just like the feelings he's developing for Ray are not supposed to be good. When they're alone together, when Ray smiles at him in that certain way, when his hand brushes his, feelings stir within Benton unlike any he's ever known before. They're strong and warm enough, he's quite certain, to melt all the snow in his homeland.
He wants to ask Ray if he feels the same. It is the right thing to do lest he one day act on these feelings and find that they are not reciprocated, but at the same time, he's scared. He's scared Ray might take the higher ground and leave him behind, and so for the second time in his life, Benton keeps his mouth shut. He doesn't act on his morals, no matter how many times he tingles when Ray brushes him. He knows he's doing wrong, but he couldn't lose Dief and he can't lose Ray, either.
The End
